This is the most beautiful thing I have ever seen in my entire life.

I am insanely lonely right now. I’m alone in Augusta on my first of two days off. I’m listening to Deadmau STROBE in my apartment living room. This song reflects both what I feel right now, and how I want to feel. I want to be in a crowd. I want to be in a social scene. I want to be an important figure in that scene. I want to have fun. Im in my twenties, and this feeling of monumental regret is being shoved into my soul by the 20 years older me. I want to dance. I want to be wild. I want to thrive. I want others to thrive because of me. I want to feed off of people. I want them to feed off of me. I want to be happy during my time away from work. I need to be uplifted.

Help me rise from the watery depths of my seclusion.



Haiku on the Universe

Learn to let it go,
And the Universe will learn
To let you have it.


And do so on a regular basis:

You cannot find happiness solely through another person, you have to first find it in yourself, then you can give it to others. Work on something that boosts your confidence; be it cooking, painting, playing music, playing video games, writing, reading, etc. Hobbies…


Claressa Shields of Flint, Mich., 2012 Olympic women’s middleweight boxing champion. 

Because 2012 is the first year women have been allowed to compete in Olympic boxing, Shields is the first woman ever to earn the title. Just 17 years old, she defeated 33-year-old Russian boxer Nadezda Torlopova, becoming the second youngest fighter to win a gold medal in either men’s or women’s boxing.

“Many Boxers are very fast or very strong,” the New Yorker wrote about Shields last May. “Shields is both.” Claressa Shields will be our very first Olympic gold medalist to speak at PopTech!


Things I hate (Pet Peeves) Version 1

1A. When something or someone is unpopular with a majority of people, but I like that thing a lot because I understand it. Then I get criticized for liking said thing or person.  Then, months or years later the said “normal people” start liking it because they either finally get it, or it becomes popular.

2B. When people try to validate their argument by demeaning another side for a reason not related to the argument.

3C. When people post links to News Stories on Facebook about so-called Christians doing bad things and then saying “This is why Religion is stupid and there is no God”.

1A. I have an individualized mind. I do not care with what you think is “cool”. I like what I think is cool. I think it’s not “cool”, to be a sheep in a flock herded by mass media.

2B. It may have worked in middle/high school, but when maturity is reached, it makes you look ignorant. It also probably means you have no ability to reason.

3C. This makes me especially sad. It is VERY ignorant to think that because one person did something questionable, that automatically means that person’s religion is wrong and that the entire existence of God is false. You can’t categorize an entire people or idea because one person in that group acted a certain way. That is called stereotyping. There are good people in every religion. There are bad people in every religion. People need to stop looking at “Christians” doing bad things, and look at Christ doing great things.


More things I hate coming soon to a tumblr near you.



From a tech and transhumanism enthusiast, let me be the first to say, READ THIS ARTICLE!!!


Now, however, the proof is starting to pile up. The first good, peer-reviewed research is emerging, and the picture is much gloomier than the trumpet blasts of Web utopians have allowed. The current incarnation of the Internet—portable, social, accelerated, and all-pervasive—may be making us not just dumber or lonelier but more depressed and anxious, prone to obsessive-compulsive and attention-deficit disorders, even outright psychotic. Our digitized minds can scan like those of drug addicts, and normal people are breaking down in sad and seemingly new ways…

Meanwhile, texting has become like blinking: the average person, regardless of age, sends or receives about 400 texts a month, four times the 2007 number. The average teen processes an astounding 3,700 texts a month, double the 2007 figure. And more than two thirds of these normal, everyday cyborgs, myself included, report feeling their phone vibrate when in fact nothing is happening. Researchers call it “phantom-vibration syndrome.”…

When the new DSM is released next year, Internet Addiction Disorder will be included for the first time, albeit in an appendix tagged for “further study.” China, Taiwan, and Korea recently accepted the diagnosis, and began treating problematic Web use as a grave national health crisis. In those countries, where tens of millions of people (and as much as 30 percent of teens) are considered Internet-addicted, mostly to gaming, virtual reality, and social media, the story is sensational front-page news. One young couple neglected its infant to death while nourishing a virtual baby online. A young man fatally bludgeoned his mother for suggesting he log off (and then used her credit card to rack up more hours). At least 10 ultra-Web users, serviced by one-click noodle delivery, have died of blood clots from sitting too long…

That same year two psychiatrists in Taiwan made headlines with the idea of iPhone addiction disorder. They documented two cases from their own practices: one involved a high-school boy who ended up in an asylum after his iPhone usage reached 24 hours a day. The other featured a 31-year-old saleswoman who used her phone while driving. Both cases might have been laughed off if not for a 200-person Stanford study of iPhone habits released at the same time. It found that one in 10 users feels “fully addicted” to his or her phone. All but 6 percent of the sample admitted some level of compulsion, while 3 percent won’t let anyone else touch their phones…

We may appear to be choosing to use this technology, but in fact we are being dragged to it by the potential of short-term rewards. Every ping could be social, sexual, or professional opportunity, and we get a mini-reward, a squirt of dopamine, for answering the bell. “These rewards serve as jolts of energy that recharge the compulsion engine, much like the frisson a gambler receives as a new card hits the table,” MIT media scholar Judith Donath recently told Scientific American. “Cumulatively, the effect is potent and hard to resist.”…

Sorry Tumblr, I love you but it's true.And don’t kid yourself: the gap between an “Internet addict” and John Q. Public is thin to nonexistent. One of the early flags for addiction was spending more than 38 hours a week online. By that definition, we are all addicts now, many of us by Wednesday afternoon, Tuesday if it’s a busy week…

Like addiction, the digital connection to depression and anxiety was also once a near laughable assertion. A 1998 Carnegie Mellon study found that Web use over a two-year period was linked to blue moods, loneliness, and the loss of real-world friends

Last year, when MTV polled its 13- to 30-year-old viewers on their Web habits, most felt “defined” by what they put online, “exhausted” by always having to be putting it out there, and utterly unable to look away for fear of missing out. [-sigh- Tumblr.]

Recently, scholars have begun to suggest that our digitized world may support even more extreme forms of mental illness. At Stanford, Dr. Aboujaoude is studying whether some digital selves should be counted as a legitimate, pathological “alter of sorts,” like the alter egos documented in cases of multiple personality disorder (now called dissociative identity disorder in the DSM)…

And all of us, since the relationship with the Internet began, have tended to accept it as is, without much conscious thought about how we want it to be or what we want to avoid. Those days of complacency should end. The Internet is still ours to shape. Our minds are in the balance.

One of those rare moments I pride myself over not having a phone since I was 17 years old.

James Franco is playing RiFF RAFF in an upcoming movie. Gucci Mane is in it too. It’s called “Spring Break”.


James Franco is playing RiFF RAFF in an upcoming movie. Gucci Mane is in it too. It’s called “Spring Break”.